Friendship you vomit out


I guess everyone values friendship differently. Someone I know could vomit and spit his friendship out so easily after deciding he doesn’t need it in his system anymore.

Looks like the defense mechanism my special friend, Carly, uses is back playing its role in my life. Seems like it’s going to be a long long time before someone could ever climb up this wall I built even higher again. — Oengette



I am missing Vancouver so badly. People usually miss someone, but I miss a place. Some people say ‘Home is where your heart is.’ Some say ‘Home is not a place, but a feeling.’ I am not sure if home actually has a universal meaning, but for me it’s both a place and a feeling.

It’s where I belong to and where I feel belongs to me.

Where every particle in my body feels alive.

Where I feel I can get through my days, knowing what I am doing.

Where I feel that life never gets tedious and there are always more to explore.

Where I can jump into a river, swim in the ocean, and hike up the mountains without taking much effort or time to do so.

Where difficult things could become easy or, at least, are not big issues because I realize how enormous the world is and how I am part of the nature.

I guess everyone’s home is different. My home is probably nature if you want a single word to describe it. I believe that we all are born from nature and I feel related to it. I feel the need of it. Vancouver is a place that city and nature are well-balanced. I find myself missing it and wanting to go back there every time my life gets hard. It’s a place where forests and ocean are never far. It’s my cure. It’s home away from home. Where is your home?  —Oengette



Faded Memories

12932698_10209665608576089_5205323415304966532_n– 35mm film : me and my lost friend


It’s strange how you had been trying to remember good memories about someone all day, how you had such good times with him, and then you got stuck in one of those memories in which you and he were laughing so hard about something stupid you just said.

You tried to think what made both of you laugh that much. You remembered the sound of his laughter so well. You could still picture those laughing eyes so clearly. You also remembered how his laughing like that even made you laugh harder. You thought harder what the reason that made you both laugh was. You thought harder. And harder, spending all day thinking about it. Still, you couldn’t remember why.

It’s strange how you can already forget something about someone so quickly, how memories fade so fast when your consciousness says please remember them, but your subconsciousness probably says it’s better to forget. Maybe in the end everyone will just be forgotten. And all I’m doing is just try to grab and hold onto all those memories as best as I could. –Oengette

We Don’t Need No Thought Control

A Buick in the Land of Lexus


Our kids are in CRISIS.

I work with teenagers in an affluent suburban area.

They don’t comprehend what they read. They use calculators to multiply 10 x 10. The average high school junior has no clue what the word “diligent” means.

They write essays resembling those of a 5th grader. About how Albert Einstein discovered electricity.

In tests administered in reading, science and math to 15 year-olds globally, we are behind TWENTY NINE countries in math. And our kids’ performance in reading and science is  not much better. And yet, American investment in education is unrivaled, globally.

Are you scared yet?

We lead the world in the consumption of illegal recreational drugs. And one of the chief sales outlets?


Our teenage suicide rate is the highest in the world.

EVERY DAY there are over 5,400 suicide attempts by kids in grades 7 – 12.

NOW are you scared?

The two places teenagers…

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This world is sick

You can’t imagine how much i’m sick of this world, where people fight because of wealthiness, inheritance or anything involved with money, no matter how well-educated they are.

Why do we study so much and get so many degrees if our minds aren’t lifted up. What is so fascinating about possession? Is money so amazing that you can just rip a family apart, or be mean to other people.

What is empathy? Does having high education mean you will start, little by little, to have no empathy?

Why do people worship power, or people that have so much power? In order to ruin someone you don’t like when needed? In order to get what you want even if it meant affecting someone else’s life? What do people really want in life? Is it the answer to everything?

I just don’t, even with my smallest part, to be in this sick world, where money rules everything, and having a lot of power means it is good to have a connection with.


Interstellar (2014) Some thoughts from Christopher Nolan’s big fan

Interstellar (2014) real disappointment by my favorite director, Christopher Nolan. Will he make another Memento or Following? Will there be any more wow feeling after watching his films? I’m not sure.. now that he’s only making blockbusters..


As I’d been waiting to see this film with my boyfriend because Nolan has been my truly favorite director from his old works like Memento (2002), Following (1998), etc, and we just got to watch it this weekend, I have to say that I was really excited and the beginning was really promising. It was really strangely good. Then it got really slow after they’ve gone into space. It wasn’t that boring but this could have been shortened in half. It is also predictable my boyfriend could even tell who was ‘the ghost’ since the beginning.


One thing that was remarkable for me was the adult Murph, Jessica Chastain. She was really cute in this role. I recognized her but wasn’t sure where i saw her and so I had to look it up and found out that she was the mother in The Tree of Life (2011) by Terrence Malick.


There’s not much I’ve got to say about the film but this is just some complex-science-straightforward-plot commercial movie that is just OK and not that bad. I think real Nolan’s fans are just let down because we’ll never see another Memento style again. Even love for family is too much that makes it so commercial. Tear jerker is the word I learned from this movie. Sadly there is no WOW feeling after watching Nolan’s film anymore.. –Oengette

The Tree of Life (2011) Review

The Tree of Life (2011) Review:
As we have been going through all of the awesome Malick’s films, I finally got to watch The Tree of Life. It’s my boyfriend second time, and he says it’s better the second time.


First of all, its WEIRD. But it’s a good weird. At the beginning I thought ‘argh is it going to be all about God’ because it started with some quote of Job’s (I didn’t even remember his him) from the Bible, but my boyfriend says he’s not convinced that it is all about god and thinks that ‘more than about religion’ is a way to watch this film, so i trusted him. (He’s my stamp) It’s weird because there is a scene that is about the creation of the world for about ten minutes. I understood that about the creation, science and god, but I just couldn’t figure out why it was there in the middle of some scenes and what it was about about the dinosaurs Lol so weird.


Second, Jack’s growing bit through out the movie is my favorite part. Lucky it is the main part of the film. This bit is really good and shows how we are created by upbringing and society we live in, sometimes conflict with our desires. How we grow..I guess the name of the movie means this too. The tree of our life. How we are created. You see how a father tries to live his life through his kids. He thinks what he does is the right thing to do, but it’s sometimes actually not. That’s sad. I don’t blame him. I don’t blame parents who are like that, but I feel sorry for their kids and I hope they can find their true selves and be it someday, without what’s been told by their parents. This part is so strong that watching it after Boyhood makes us think that Boyhood is so shallow, so weak as it was filmed in the same content, growing and coming of age.


What I didn’t really like was the ending. Through out the movie, you can see there is always light. In most scenes, the shots with light were done really well. I figured that out after I saw the eclipse scene, darkness and light. There are also many door openings and stairs, which conveys the idea of hope and faith. I appreciate the idea of being good and the idea of faith, but not when they are expressed in terms of God, or a religion. So the last ten-minute ending, which seems to be a little too religious to me, kind of disappointed me though it was really well made. Though it’s Terrence Malick. I would give this film an 8.5. –Oengette

Whiplash (2014) Review


Interesting camera work and direction, good music, and awesome actors, but not the message.

The film started pretty well despite its colors that made me think it felt more like a horror or thriller film. Camera work was good and made the film not boring at all (my boyfriend didn’t fall asleep so this is one good evidence). I liked the music. The actors were awesome in their roles. (No doubt it won so many best supporting actors and best director awards) But at some point the movie started to be over the top. Some scenes were too unbelievable especially the car crash scene. The message was actually poor..and the end should have been the best bit but i was disappointed because the guy got away with it. 


  “I was there to push people beyond what’s expected of them. I believe that’s an absolute necessity.”

               The thing that he said ..well I don’t believe that is an absolute necessity. What is necessary is to make sure you enjoy doing what you love because this is your life. You shouldn’t be pressurized to do something you love. That’s nonsense and absolutely one wrong way that people believe is good for themselves to achieve their goals. You deserve to enjoy it. Some push could be valuable but please guys! that push like in the movie? go hang yourself..if you seriously think that is a good idea, you are already dead. —Oengette

Gone Girl (2014) Review: the worst people-say-it’s-awesome movie this year

Gone Girl (2014) the worst people-say-it’s-so-awesome movie I’ve seen this year


The movie started so promising but then I could guess what was going on. However, it did pretty well on making us want to know the end. And the production was pretty good. There were twists which were ok..I mean not that unpredictable? But not bad. Then we started to question..why did she do that? What for? Or they may have done it together but then I don’t see what they will get? We kept guessing with expectation for the best way the movie could have done. But the end was the most disappointing part of all. So all the time I spent was for very little substance, or as my papa asked “was there any?”

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You may say yeah sure it conveys a marriage failure. But did she really think that it would solve everything? If you watch and don’t look past the surface then the movie (or the book?) may look kinda good for its production and the twists. But what I saw was, as my boyfriend said and I totally agreed, ‘well made shit’.


Nightcrawler (2014) Review

Nightcrawler (2014) one of the best films in 2014 so I should spend some time writing this review..


First thing I liked was that Jake Gyllenhaal was so good at being a weirdo (and a psychopath lol) that I thought he might actually be a real weirdo himself and yes he actually is! From the news I’ve seen, he worked out six hours a day for six months to get his muscles for his next movie Southpaw. And now he doesn’t even look like himself. He is such an awesome actor. I was hooked because of his awesome acting since the beginning of the movie and even forgot to pause at the first words (I watch a movie online with my boyfriend who is in the US). You may remember Jake from Donnie Darko (2001), which I liked a lot, and other stuff.


Second thing, not sure if this means giving out spoilers but i’ll try not to. It gives people the idea of news that they are consuming. I mean I figured that shit out since I was in school when my mom turned on a TV every morning and what I got was only shit in the morning so I haven’t watched TV for a long time. Not only did this movie give you the idea of how sucky the stuff you are consuming is but also how it became news you watch every morning or evening. It made me feel terribly sad that people could make a living by doing all this shit. That the world has gone too far to heal.


One more thing I want to mention is that I wish everyone who does business watched this movie so they could go back and think and rethink and then rethink again about what they are doing to a society (let’s hope they understand the message because they could agree with the man lol). There are a lot of business practices here in the movie and it makes me kind of think jesus what am I studying in school? Like if you started a business and there were some competitors in the market and you had choices to develop your business strategies, would there be ‘destroy your enemy’ in one of your thoughts? Or even you felt that you were losing a bargaining power, what would you do? would you do it like the man? This movie really gives you business people a lot to think about.

ดาวน์โหลด“What if my problem wasn’t that I don’t understand people but that I don’t like them? What if I was the kind of person who was obliged to hurt you for this? I mean physically. I think you’d have to believe afterward, if you could, that agreeing to participate and then backing out at the critical moment was a mistake. Because that’s what I’m telling you, as clearly as I can.”

And for the cinematography..yeah I really liked the direction. Jake was crazily good. And my boyfriend really liked the colors. The music was right. We agreed this is one of the best that we have seen, other than The Grand Budapest Hotel by Wes Anderson, Under the Skin, and The Only Lovers Left Alive. Our 2014 list hasn’t ended yet. We should finish half of the rest over Christmas. —Oengette